Cheers! Liver is good! April 15th, 2010

Finally a little good news this week.  My liver looks good! Cancer free from the ultrasound.  Sarah was with me today,  I had the ultrasound on so many organs, the tech even looked at my baby!  I got to see my baby again today rolling around moving its arms.  Then Sarah joined me and we waited.  The radiologist came in and said liver looks good and took a few looks himself and then said everything looks good.  Meanwhile we joked how Sarah is also pregnant and I asked the radiologist if they could quickly show Sarah my baby! He laughed and said yes, but I'm not doing it to her!  So Auntie Sarah saw her niece or nephew today!! Thanks everyone for the comments and support and keeping my spirits up!
So Cheers to a healthy liver!  Drink one for me!   xoxo

Family trip to Dana Farber - results suck April 14, 2010

Since Larry is away... my loving family was there for me today, Sarah, Jesse, Mom and Dad, all packed into 1 small car together! Reminded me of Italy! Half way into the ride Jesse brings out his lunch box, napkin on his lap, enjoys a turkey sandwich and yogurt, and snacks were passed around for everyone! My family is great for some fun laughs in tough times!! First we met the nurse for an hour and then the oncologist for another 40 mins of questions. So yes, the margins were not clean, cancer cells spread out like fingers on some sides and the size measured once removed was 2.2 cm. 9 out of 10 lymph nodes had tumor in it as well. So where does that leave me for options? Well not many. I can have a mastectomy now, within next 2 weeks, then chemo, then deliver baby at about 36-38 weeks, then round 2 of chemo and radiation. Or I can have chemo within 2 weeks, deliver at 32-34 weeks, and then immediately have mastectomy, round 2 chemo and radiation. Either way, I have to have it all done, but also my baby will still be ok.

early morning wake up call 1 hour ago

fyi - i just got this news..  tears still rolling down my face so i apologize for the mistakes..  usually i proof read or at least spell check.
at 7:30 am i got a call, i was thinking it was larry but no it was my surgeon.   calling to tell me about the results - not sure why they didnt wait until i was at the doctors today at 1 but anyways.   more bad news.  they didnt get clear margins..  cancer cells were trailing off on some sides so it is still in my breast tissue.  and yes it is in my lymph nodes.    i really dont know much more..   i dont understand why they tell you the bad stuff, make your mind go crazy for 4 hours,  then tell you the options.    hopefully there are options.

Results Day!!! April 14th, 2010

I slept pretty good considering Larry is away for work and today is a big day.   Today I am going to Dana Farber with Sarah and my Mom to find out the results of the surgery.  Praying for clear margins and no cancer in the lymph nodes!!!!   I should also learn all about my chemo treatments.    And then either have lunch or ice cream!
Check back later tonight for results! xoxo