My PR manager, my support group and my inspirations. March 13th, 2010

Throughout the weekend, as more and more friends and family learned about my breast cancer, the prayers began and their worry and concern took over. Since everyone wanted to give me space, or maybe didn’t know what to say to me, Sarah became my PR Manager! Everyone would email or call her for updates. I feel bad, she automatically took on this struggle with me, while she should be enjoying her first pregnancy too! We should be talking about baby names and morning sickness, not cancer treatments. But we will, and we do, now.  My sister, best friend, and now PR Manager, I probably should be paying her!

My husband, family and friends… and more friends… giving me support, messages, texts and prayers. And laughs… lots of laughs, some too dirty to share! “get the biggest implants you want!” “Free boob feels” or from Larry, “No Pity Parties!” “ Free breast exams from an expert!” Laughter definitely keeps it less stressful, so keep it coming, not much can offend me.

While spending the weekend reading every cancer website I could find, I came across two inspirations. First, as I was searching images of breast cancer, I came across a photographer who photographs breast cancer survivors. A week ago I was thinking about maternity photos, images of my baby resting on my breast and now I don’t know if I would have a baby or a breast to lay it on. His website had something different. Beautiful pictures, women showing courage, strength and happiness. These photos touched me so much, finally an image of peace, not pain. (a link to the photos will be added soon!)

Positive test result!!! Jan 5th, 2010

I remember that day so clearly. The doctor’s office called, my voicemail had a new message. I couldn’t wait until I got home and my sister couldn’t either. My friend Tijana and I went to a private area at work, and on speaker, listened to the message together. “I am happy to tell you, you have a positive pregnancy test result.” We screamed! I cried! My first positive pregnancy test ever! I quickly called Sarah (yes, before Larry) and then Larry and my mom and soon after my friends. A few days later my second test and yes, I’m still pregnant! I was never so excited, so ecstatic! Finally!

To make it even better, Sarah was having a baby too! And as fate may have it, we were both due on Sept 12th! It is so wonderful to be able to go through this experience with both your husband and your best friend! Maybe this is why it took me so long to get pregnant? So Larry and I could share the journey with Sarah and Jesse!